There are times along this journey, when we are tired. And with that weariness of heart, fear or loneliness creeps into our being. Yesterday, was such a day. This came after weeks of abounding faith; yet, it hit me like a ton of bricks. I found myself irritable, afraid, and depressed. You might think it strange, after my last post was filled with how to have faith. But, you see, that is when Satan loves to attack us. It began the evening before when my hopes soared as an email said my application was referred on; however, in going into the website, it said “not referred” as your qualifications were not enough. Rejected.
Knowing I am needed in Florida, I took this as God tearing my heart in two, as though He was saying, your not good enough. (Although that is Satan’s lie every time). For a few hours, I fought the fear, the tears, and the pain, not even knowing what to ask from God. He had heard it all before from me. I then awoke yesterday with the same feelings of despair, making it hard to even read my Bible. After multiple errands, I came home and took a nap. When I awoke I listened to a sermon by Charles Stanley, read the scriptures, and asked God to forgive my unbelief. Then it came again, that peace of knowing God Is and He blesses all those who seek Him.
So, I wrote for you today this poem.
Sometimes When I’m Tired, Afraid, and Alone
Sometimes when I’m tired, afraid, and alone
My heart cries to you with tears or a moan
Forgetting that you are still on Your throne
And all of the Grace to me that you’ve shown
My eyes lose their focus, a moment or two
I fall to my knees and cry out to You
Seeking Your face, Your love I pursue
Quiet and still, Your face then I view
Filled with remorse, Oh, what have I done
Forgetting to trust in Your Beloved Son
Tis then to the cross, I heartily run
Broken, Contrite, and feeling undone
Yet, You’re standing there with arms open wide
Instilling the faith that I had let slide
Removing the dust of my human pride
That there in Your Grace, my heart may abide
Then, peace like a river covers my life
Removing the stress, the pain and the strife
Reminding me that Your will is the best
And in Your dear love, I always find rest
Dear Lord, take my life, conform it to be
The life that you’ve planned by Your love for me
And when I am blind, please Lord, help me to see
That You are the treasure, that brings my heart glee.
Concluding Thoughts
When life looks impossible and you are tired, afraid, and alone; run home, fall on your knees with your Bible in hand. God will restore your faith. His plan is best for You and I.
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DO YOU KNOW CHRIST AS YOUR SAVIOR?
If you don’t know Jesus Christ as your Savior: I urge you to go to my page titled How to Be Saved by clicking on this link. Because there is nothing more important than this, I urge you to seek Him today.
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©Effie Darlene Barba, 2017
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