God our refuge and our hope

Psalm 46

King James Version (KJV)

Psalm 46

1God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble.

2Therefore will not we fear, though the earth be removed, and though the mountains be carried into the midst of the sea;

3Though the waters thereof roar and be troubled, though the mountains shake with the swelling thereof. Selah.

4There is a river, the streams whereof shall make glad the city of God, the holy place of the tabernacles of the most High.

5God is in the midst of her; she shall not be moved: God shall help her, and that right early.

6The heathen raged, the kingdoms were moved: he uttered his voice, the earth melted.

7The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

8Come, behold the works of the LORD, what desolations he hath made in the earth.

9He maketh wars to cease unto the end of the earth; he breaketh the bow, and cutteth the spear in sunder; he burneth the chariot in the fire.

10Be still, and know that I am God: I will be exalted among the heathen, I will be exalted in the earth.

11The LORD of hosts is with us; the God of Jacob is our refuge. Selah.

      In the news every day there are so many things that could cause our hearts to tremble if we were not aware that our Father is in control and He rules on His throne.  This does not mean, for example that no bad news can become a part of my family because of this—it does mean that no bad news that does become a part of my family was not ordained by my heavenly Father who loves me and my children with an unconditional, sacrificial love.  It does mean that a sovereign omnipotent, omniscient God has allowed that to come into my or my families life that we might come to know Him more intimately and that we might see the power of His might in the midst of whatever storm.  That through that trial we might shine forth His Glory to the world who is watching whether we know they are or not. 

            When the whirlwinds of doubt surround you, when life’s storms are pounding at very soul, and when there seems to be no answer—Be still and know that He is God.  Bask in His presence until all doubt fades away.  Remember as Christ said, John 16: “

33These things I have spoken unto you, that in me ye might have peace. In the world ye shall have tribulation: but be of good cheer; I have overcome the world.

 

 

Whiter than Snow Expounded

I previously posted Whiter than Snow, but realized that there were some questions left unanswered in the initial posting.  Precisely when doing a bible search of those words—they presented mostly in reference to Christ; however, what was I to do with the two times that it referred to leprousy occurring as a result of sin in the lives of  Gehazi and Miriam?   Where did this idea fit within the framework of the chapter in the which my desire was to show that God takes our sin and transforms us.  “Though your sin be as scarlet it shall be white as snow.”  I prayed earnestly for God to tell explain this to me and I kept studying this portion again.  He did and that was so amazing that I must share the re-write of this section. 

Whiter Than Snow

though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as snow, though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.” Isaiah 1:18

Throughout my life one of those things that I have most struggled with is my own sense of failure and guilt. This becomes even more prevalent when facing a trial. What did I do this time to deserve this punishment? Guilt and self-disdain quickly become utter despair. Then that despair at times led to a paralyzing depression which blocked my ability to accomplish anything or to feel love. In the center of this disdaining despair, I found that I could not feel God’s presence; even though I know He was there. Everything appeared as though the world was crashing in around me and I was certain in that moment it must have been my fault. In those moments I became acutely aware of the fact that I would never be good enough to earn God’s love by my own efforts. Though this is a struggle I have battled with during each valley; I have learned that guilt is actually Satan’s trap. Momentarily my testimony for Christ becomes nonexistent. In fact, anger builds within as I battle against guilt and hatred of myself. In those moments I have found myself plummeting downward farther and farther. That anger results in my snapping harsh words to those around me which then drives me ever deeper into despair. So, how can I or you be released from a sense of guilt and failure? The answer is to lay it forever at the cross of Christ and remember the fact that God has already paid for that sin. There are some direct consequences of sin which may result in trials; but God is not punishing you. For example, if I were to steal; then I might be in jail or if I decide to be promiscuous; then HIV may be a direct consequence of that decision. Yet, because Christ has covered my sins from the moment I accepted Him as my Savior; He can and will make something beautiful from even my failures when I bring them to the cross. Salvation is available by Grace and Grace alone. Although God may allow the consequences of my sin to occur; He is not standing up in heaven looking down waiting to swat me with some gigantic flyswatter. Instead, He looks down with great sorrow and tears over my failure to understand that His plan for me is the best. He knows that my failures are a result of my inability to fully comprehend His love and the price He paid for me.

My struggle with guilt and self-disdain has been my greatest thorn in the flesh. Even in childhood, I worked constantly striving toward perfection in hopes to be liked by those around me. I was an overweight little girl with a speech impediment; so, I worked hard toward pleasing the teachers and being a good student. I remember an incident in first grade. There was a little boy that I admired and he had used his crayons to color inside his desk. Since I thought his desk was so pretty, I decided to color inside mine. When the teacher angrily asked me who had colored my desk, I became frightened and said, “I don’t know.” Consequently, she paddled me and made me stay in during recess to clean my desk. This should have been the end of the story; but I carried around the guilt for the act and the lie for years. The remainder of that year, my eyes faced the floor whenever I had to go up front to answer a question or talk to the teacher. Inside, I felt I was a failure; despite my graduating first grade as #1 in my class. Three years later, I remember some adult just as conversation said, “You gotten spanked at school, yet?” Then quickly my little voice said “No.” I was too ashamed to tell the truth; yet, I worried over that lie for many years to come. I somehow believed that God was going to reach down and strike me with a bolt of lightning. I have struggled with that same sense of fear and guilt throughout my life and even more so when a valley comes. Remember God’s answer to Paul regarding his thorn in the flesh? God said, “My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness” 2 Corinthians 12:9. His Grace is sufficient to cover my failures, my sins and my guilt. He has gently reminded me of this truth each step of my journey. So, if you find yourself as a Christian burdened down by guilt; please take this journey with me. If you have never accepted Christ as your Savior, then also take this journey so as to find the only way to have your sin guilt removed.

When I first began my Master’s program in late 1997, I would stay with my 104 year old Grandfather. He was essentially blind from macular degeneration and nearly deaf; yet, he lived alone and cared for himself. This patriarch of the faith spent every day in prayer and Bible study. He had special earphones and a taped Bible that he continued to study daily. I often joked that if I needed anything of God- I just needed to ask my Grandfather because I was certain he had a telephone to God, a direct hotline that never had any static. One of the times I was there he began to expound on Isaiah 1:18though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as snow, though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.” He would tell me, as a reminder, that after accepting Christ, one’s soul could no longer sin. The soul is made Whiter than snow. He would explain that our flesh could sin, but our soul could not sin. Our soul had been washed in the blood of Christ and would remain sinless from the moment we accepted Christ and throughout eternity.

Though I understood what this great Christian patriarch was saying, I failed to fully grasp the depth of those words or to accept the full gravity of the meanings. I understood with my intellect; yet, my own guilt would at times block this truth from my heart. The truth that we are made “whiter than snow” has such a depth of meaning and is the true expression of Grace demonstrated by God. Why do I fail to be able to claim this truth? It is in those dark hours of despair that He has led me to look once more at this truth. I began to search the scripture about “white as snow”. That review led me to find the other uses of “whiter than snow” or white as wool.” That search led me to discover that those words were used in two separate references. It was used in referring to the leprosy of Miriam, Naaman, and Ghehazi. Then it was used in reference to Christ. At first there was some question in my mind as to how could the leprosy be used and at first I thought this had to be a mistake. Yet, God never makes a mistake; therefore I researched the references a little farther and then I found within the law an answer which I hope I might convey without causing any confusion. When looking at the law regarding leprosy we find in Leviticus 13: 12And if a leprosy break out abroad in the skin, and the leprosy cover all the skin of him that hath the plague from his head even to his foot, wheresoever the priest looketh;  13Then the priest shall consider: and, behold, if the leprosy have covered all his flesh, he shall pronounce him clean that hath the plague: it is all turned white: he is clean. 14But when raw flesh appeareth in him, he shall be unclean.  15And the priest shall see the raw flesh, and pronounce him to be unclean: for the raw flesh is unclean: it is leprosy.” So, if the flesh were all covered and had become all white (covering the diseased flesh); then the leper was declared clean. This is much like our sin being covered by the blood of Christ until the flesh below the surface of the white righteousness of Christ cannot be seen again in the eyes of God.

Now let’s take a look at the scriptures about leprosy where “whiter than snow” were used.

Numbers 12

1And Miriam and Aaron spake against Moses because of the Ethiopian woman whom he had married: for he had married an Ethiopian woman.

2And they said, Hath the LORD indeed spoken only by Moses? hath he not spoken also by us? And the LORD heard it.

3(Now the man Moses was very meek, above all the men which were upon the face of the earth.)

4And the LORD spake suddenly unto Moses, and unto Aaron, and unto Miriam, Come out ye three unto the tabernacle of the congregation. And they three came out.

5And the LORD came down in the pillar of the cloud, and stood in the door of the tabernacle, and called Aaron and Miriam: and they both came forth.

6And he said, Hear now my words: If there be a prophet among you, I the LORD will make myself known unto him in a vision, and will speak unto him in a dream.

7My servant Moses is not so, who is faithful in all mine house.

8With him will I speak mouth to mouth, even apparently, and not in dark speeches; and the similitude of the LORD shall he behold: wherefore then were ye not afraid to speak against my servant Moses?

9And the anger of the LORD was kindled against them; and he departed.

10And the cloud departed from off the tabernacle; and, behold, Miriam became leprous, white as snow: and Aaron looked upon Miriam, and, behold, she was leprous.

11And Aaron said unto Moses, Alas, my lord, I beseech thee, lay not the sin upon us, wherein we have done foolishly, and wherein we have sinned.

12Let her not be as one dead, of whom the flesh is half consumed when he cometh out of his mother’s womb.

13And Moses cried unto the LORD, saying, Heal her now, O God, I beseech thee.

14And the LORD said unto Moses, If her father had but spit in her face, should she not be ashamed seven days? let her be shut out from the camp seven days, and after that let her be received in again.

15And Miriam was shut out from the camp seven days: and the people journeyed not till Miriam was brought in again”

Miriam had sinned against God; yet when she was cursed with leprosy at the same time she was covered from head to toe. She was sent to separation from the group for seven days. She was aware of her sin and her leprous flesh; yet, He covered her white as snow which by the law would declare her clean. A perfect picture of Grace in that sinful flesh was covered white as snow by God’s gracious hand. Before a person accepts the atonement for sin they must understand that they are a sinner and are in a sense “leprous with sin.” Much like leprosy which destroys one’s ability to feel pain; sin destroys overtime our ability to even feel any weight for our sins. One lie leads to bigger lies to full corruption sometimes with no remorse, etcetera.

The second example in which leprosy was used in the Bible with the words “whiter than snow” was very similar and as follows.

2 Kings 5: 20But Gehazi, the servant of Elisha the man of God, said, Behold, my master hath spared Naaman this Syrian, in not receiving at his hands that which he brought: but, as the LORD liveth, I will run after him, and take somewhat of him.

21So Gehazi followed after Naaman. And when Naaman saw him running after him, he lighted down from the chariot to meet him, and said, Is all well?

22And he said, All is well. My master hath sent me, saying, Behold, even now there be come to me from mount Ephraim two young men of the sons of the prophets: give them, I pray thee, a talent of silver, and two changes of garments.

23And Naaman said, Be content, take two talents. And he urged him, and bound two talents of silver in two bags, with two changes of garments, and laid them upon two of his servants; and they bare them before him.

24And when he came to the tower, he took them from their hand, and bestowed them in the house: and he let the men go, and they departed.

25But he went in, and stood before his master. And Elisha said unto him, Whence comest thou, Gehazi? And he said, Thy servant went no whither.

26And he said unto him, Went not mine heart with thee, when the man turned again from his chariot to meet thee? Is it a time to receive money, and to receive garments, and oliveyards, and vineyards, and sheep, and oxen, and menservants, and maidservants?

27The leprosy therefore of Naaman shall cleave unto thee, and unto thy seed for ever. And he went out from his presence a leper as white as snow.”

Again though Gehazi’s sin was displayed in the leprous flesh; God’s Grace was displayed again by covering the entire flesh as white as snow—proclaiming Gehazi clean under the law. In both cases Miriam and Gehazi, lived out their days covered with this white flesh as a constant reminder of God’s grace which can be a perfect illustration of our own exchange of our sin for Christ’s righteousness. We must ever be reminded of who we really are (leprous sinners) saved by Grace and now covered with Christ’s white robe of righteousness. Remembrance of our sins should not be as a result of “guilt” anymore; rather our clothing of righteousness should draw us ever more diligently in love to desire to display the righteousness in which we are clothed and not to demonstrate the flesh below. And we know that Gehazi was not retired from his service to God as one might note in 2 Kings 8: 4 where he is referred to as “Gehazi the servant of the man of God” That is Grace demonstrated.

The remainder of the incidences in which God has used the expression of “whiter than snow” or “white as wool” are in reference to Christ Himself.

In Daniel 7:9 it is written “And the Ancient of days did sit whose garment was white as snow and hair of his head like the pure wool.” Again in Matthew 28:3 when speaking of Jesus as he ascended from the grave “ His countenance was like lightening and his raiment white as snow, and the hair of his head like the pure wool.” Furthermore it is found in Matthew 28:3 when speaking of Jesus as he ascended from the grave “His countenance was like lightening and his raiment white as snow.” It is amazing to me that there is even a greater significance than merely Grace to save us found in these references (For the grace that saves us is already so much more than we deserve. Yet in the remainder of the references to “white as snow or in reference to wool, refers to the countenance of Christ, which represents the significance of these words, whiter than snow when referring to the believer. That though our sins are like “scarlet” when washed in the blood of Christ our souls take on “His image” and we become, as He is – sinless and blameless before God.

I also found this reference in Mark 9:3 as Peter, James and John transcended a high mountain “He was transfigured before them. And his raiment became shining, exceeding white as snow, so as no fuller on earth can white them.” Christ’s raiment was “whiter than snow” is also referred to in Revelations 1: 13-14 “ And in the midst of the candlesticks one like unto the Son of man his head and his hair were while like wool, as white as snow.”

Wow, when He says, “though your sins be as scarlet they shall be white as snow” He is referring to a transformation of our sins to being spotless like Jesus. Covered in His blood we are accounted as having perfection and become clothed with his white garment of righteousness. This is through faith and grace. Paul refers to Abraham in Romans 4:3, by saying “Abraham believed God and it was counted unto him for righteousness.” Our faith and belief are counted for righteousness. “Though your sins be as scarlet”- refers to blood guiltiness. There are some who would try to say, “But I try to live a good life-I haven’t done anything that bad.” But as is noted in Romans 3:23 “For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” None of us through works of our own can find righteousness or wash away our sin nature- we remain red as scarlet. Only the blood of Christ can make our garments “white as snow” “But we are an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities like the wind, have taken us away.” Isaiah 63:

Now Crimson is a red colorfast dye of the scarlet worm-it is a stain very difficult to eradicate. Therefore, the symbolic removal of this stain and turning it to white as wool represents something so difficult that man could not himself remove. It is a picture of the life changing Grace of God that delivers us from our sins. Our sins a deep stain impossible to remove is made white as wool by the precious blood of Christ.

This is truly of Grace and grace alone. “For by Grace are ye saved through faith, and that not of yourselves it is the Gift of God-Not of works, lest any man should boast.” Ephesians 2:7-9 It is through faith that grace abounds unto righteousness. “even so by the righteousness of one the free gift came upon all men unto justification of life. 19For as by one man’s disobedience many were made sinners, so by the obedience of one shall many be made righteous.” Romans 5: 18-19

This righteousness that is accounted to each who believes in Jesus Christ by faith is not based on works. Therefore, it cannot be a source of neither pride nor guilt. Our works cannot alter it. The soul is free from all sin-past, present and future. The soul can no longer sin. “Whosoever is born of God doth not commit sin; for his seed remaineth in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God.” I John 3:9. This perfection of the soul, this covering of our sins is forever due to the sacrifice of Christ. “But this man, after he had offered the one sacrifice for sins forever, sat down on the right hand of God; from henceforth expecting till his enemies be made his footstool. For by one offering he has perfected forever them that are sanctified.” Hebrews 10: 12-14

It is difficult for us to recognize the magnitude of His Grace; but truly He has taken our scarlet stains of sin and washed them whiter than snow. He has made us sons-joint heirs of His kingdom. “But when the fullness of time was come, God sent forth his Son, made of a woman, made under the law. To redeem them that were under the law, that we might receive the adoption of sons. And because ye are sons, God hath sent forth the Spirit of His Son into your hearts, crying Abba Father. Wherefore thou art no more a servant, but a son; and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ.” Galatians 4:4-7 Being covered by the blood of Christ, we are seen by the Father as “whiter than snow-like wool” just as He has described His Son. He is about the business of perfecting that transformation; yet, God always sees the finished product. “For whom He did foreknow He also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of His Son” Romans 8:29

At the point of accepting Christ as our Savior, we are forgiven of our sins. Additionally we are given Christ’s righteousness-placed in our account. Being accounted righteous means we are no longer captives of neither guilt nor sin’s hold. It has been my experience that when I get buried in my own guilt, I am more likely to keep falling into the same sin. Therefore, guilt does not release me from sin’s hold on my life. Only grace and faith can do that. Besides, guilt is a very prideful thing when confronted with scripture. It is saying, “God, Christ may have died for my sin; but my sin is too big for You to forgive.” When we are guilt-laden we are focused on our self and our sin rather than the blood of Christ. We do not become justified by wallowing in our guilt; we are justified by Christ. The truth of that sets you free from both sin and the guilt thereof. When you are condemning yourself, you are focused on you, not on God. 2 Corinthians 3: 17-18 says, “17Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. 18But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.” So I urge you and myself to take our eyes off of our failures and look deep into the face of Christ.

Many fear to teach the truth concerning Grace. They fear that people will utilize this as a license to sin more. The truth gives too much liberty they think. Despite the inability of our soul to sin once saved- our flesh remains filled with the sin nature as is so clearly stated by Paul the apostle. “For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal sold under sin. For that which I do I allow not, for that which I would, that do I not, what I hate that I do. If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. Now it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. For I know that in me (that is in my flesh) dwelleth no good thing for to will is present with me, but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would I do not but the evil which I would not, that I do. I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil, is present with me. For I delight in the law of God after the inward man But I see another law in my members warring against the law of my mind and bringing me into the captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.” Romans 7: 15-25.

Our flesh, our sinful nature still sins: however the Holy Spirit which dwells in us draws us toward the likeness of Christ. “There is therefore no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin condemned sin in the flesh, that the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit.” Romans 8:1-4. Once we take our focus off of our guilt and ourselves to place that focus on Jesus; we actually sin less. The reason being when we are focused on Christ, we see sin for what it really is-a barrier to demonstrating the praise to Christ that would bring Him the Glory we desire to bring Him. The more we focus on Christ, the more we love Him. The more we love Him, the more we want to bring smiles to His face rather than tears of sorrow. We become compelled by love to please Him, not out of fear.

My belated husband suffered greatly from a bipolar disorder which tormented him day and night. That spilled over at times to his becoming very abusive. The early years of my marriage led me to obey him out of fear. I remained frustrated, victimized, and doomed to fail over and over. There came a moment in which the eyes of my heart began to see him clearly as this tormented soul. Suddenly, my reason for trying to please him came out of love instead of fear. I wanted to ease his discomfort. No longer was I a victim. I was now empowered to love. I know in some ways this may be a poor illustration; yet, God used those years to teach me about unconditional love. He allowed me, this imperfect human, to demonstrate unconditional love. There I began to understand God’s unconditional love for me which was greater than anything I could display. God does not have a bipolar abusive personality; but when we walk around with guilt and fear of His punishment, we are acting as though He does. Instead, He is looking at us with unconditional love which only wants the best for us.

What possibly can all this really mean to us? It means we have liberty and freedom from both guilt and worry concerning our Christian walk. It means that when I fall face down into the mud, God does not gleefully look down and rub my face in it. There in that pit of mud I may keep my head down as I pitifully cry out to God of my failure. At that very moment, God reaches down, takes my hand, and with gentle voice says as He looks through the blood of Christ; “What sin my child? I don’t see any. Come. Take my hand. We have work that needs to be done. The fields are white with harvest.” He gently pulls me up, dusts me off, kisses my cheek and off we go together. Such love and grace He displays. Remember this salvation and this walk with God is dependent on faith and faith only. We are free from the bondage of the law. Let loose the chains that weigh you down. Accept God’s full grace—knowing that once saved—your soul has been washed “whiter than snow”. Let go of your chains of guilt and worry—allow the Holy Spirit to perform His work through you. Allow God’s righteous work to be performed in your body by the Spirit. Take that deep breath of fresh air that fills your body and soul, that breath that comes from the freedom of walking in Grace. Oh, what Amazing and magnificent Grace that God hath poured forth on us.

Let us Pray

“Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for your Grace that has covered all my sins. Thank you for the sacrifice of your Son that I might be freed forever from the bondage of sin, guilt and worry—that my soul might be “whiter than snow”. My God thou art truly an awesome God, full of Mercy and Grace. Guide me with thy Spirit, direct my life. Let your righteousness Shine forth through me. Help me when I am weak and fail to claim this truth in my own life. Be my faith when I can no longer believe. Thank you for this love you have so freely given and thank you for your unconditional love even when I fail to love myself. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Restoration after Failure

Chapter 6 Peter’s restoration

John 21: 3Simon Peter saith unto them, I go a fishing. They say unto him, We also go with thee. They went forth, and entered into a ship immediately; and that night they caught nothing.

4But when the morning was now come, Jesus stood on the shore: but the disciples knew not that it was Jesus.

5Then Jesus saith unto them, Children, have ye any meat? They answered him, No.

6And he said unto them, Cast the net on the right side of the ship, and ye shall find. They cast therefore, and now they were not able to draw it for the multitude of fishes.

7Therefore that disciple whom Jesus loved saith unto Peter, It is the Lord. Now when Simon Peter heard that it was the Lord, he girt his fisher’s coat unto him, (for he was naked,) and did cast himself into the sea.

8And the other disciples came in a little ship; (for they were not far from land, but as it were two hundred cubits,) dragging the net with fishes.

9As soon then as they were come to land, they saw a fire of coals there, and fish laid thereon, and bread.

10Jesus saith unto them, Bring of the fish which ye have now caught.

11Simon Peter went up, and drew the net to land full of great fishes, an hundred and fifty and three: and for all there were so many, yet was not the net broken.

12Jesus saith unto them, Come and dine. And none of the disciples durst ask him, Who art thou? knowing that it was the Lord.

13Jesus then cometh, and taketh bread, and giveth them, and fish likewise.

14This is now the third time that Jesus shewed himself to his disciples, after that he was risen from the dead.

15So when they had dined, Jesus saith to Simon Peter, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me more than these? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my lambs.

16He saith to him again the second time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? He saith unto him, Yea, Lord; thou knowest that I love thee. He saith unto him, Feed my sheep.

17He saith unto him the third time, Simon, son of Jonas, lovest thou me? Peter was grieved because he said unto him the third time, Lovest thou me? And he said unto him, Lord, thou knowest all things; thou knowest that I love thee. Jesus saith unto him, Feed my sheep.

The scene for Peter’s restoration takes him back to the very beginning when Christ asked him to follow and He would make him “fisher of men” Christ had reappeared to Simon Peter at two times before this visit; but the time was not right yet until now to ease this apostle’s pain. No mention had been made of the denial. This was His third visit as though the number 3 would play a role in this restoration. Jesus Christ in His Omniscience is very patient to wait until the perfect moment. He could have rushed to Simon Peter with the words “I forgive you”; but he didn’t. He waited. He knew that Peter was hurting and most likely tried to avoid the obvious question; yet, Jesus waited. It reminds me of another time when Jesus waited despite the pain of another loved one, because he loved them. That time was in John 11 which details Lazarus’s death and resurrection. The scriptures read, “1Now a certain man was sick, named Lazarus, of Bethany, the town of Mary and her sister Martha. 2(It was that Mary which anointed the Lord with ointment, and wiped his feet with her hair, whose brother Lazarus was sick.) 3Therefore his sisters sent unto him, saying, Lord, behold, he whom thou lovest is sick.  4When Jesus heard that, he said, This sickness is not unto death, but for the glory of God, that the Son of God might be glorified thereby. 5Now Jesus loved Martha, and her sister, and Lazarus. 6When he had heard therefore that he was sick, he abode two days still in the same place where he was.” In this case it was because He loved Mary, Martha, and Lazarus—He waited so that His Glory might be accomplished and so that they would come to understand His might and power in their life. Had He arrived sooner they could not understand what He was doing. They would have been seeking merely the miracle; but not the miracle giver. They needed to have their faith stretched to the point of faithless sorrow so that they might understand the depth, breadth, and width of His Love and Gift for them. The same is true of Simon Peter, because Christ loved him so much, he had to wait until the perfect moment. Peter had seen the resurrection of Christ and was thrilled with the truth of Christ’s death and resurrection; yet, as you note—He returned to fishing. “After all, Christ has said nothing about the denial; perhaps, I cannot be used in His service”, thought Peter. “I blew it!! What can I do? I witnessed a miracle beyond any miracle and I met the Savior, the Messiah. What an honor I have been blessed with.” So with that mentality, Peter went back to the fishing. That was the only occupation he knew and certainly he did not believe he would ever be good enough to return to Christ’s service. He had failed Christ at a crucial moment, all his bragging about love and devotion had been nothing more than a lot of worthless hot air.

Peter had fished all night and even then failed to catch any fish; perhaps, even in this he felt a failure. As the morning dawned there was Christ standing on the shore. In fact, the disciples did not recognize Him; perhaps, they weren’t looking for Him at that moment—they were not certain what role they now played in the Kingdom of God. In fact, for Peter, he had gone back to his former life, why would Christ appear now? Peter, I daresay, doesn’t recall the prayer and promise of Christ that when he was restored to strengthen the brethren. Instead, Peter took them fishing. In fact, Peter was fishing in the nude as he had formerly done. Then Peter realized that this was Jesus Christ as He had commanded them to throw the nets in and pull up an overflowing catch of fish; just like in the beginning. Peter grabbed his coat and jumped into the water. Oddly, that he would throw on a coat to swim when swimming is much simpler in the nude. Yet, Peter wanted to try to cover his own shame for his lack of faith in Christ’s ability to use him and for his denial a few days, weeks prior. When Peter and the disciples reached the shore Christ was already cooking fish so as to provide a meal to His disciples. He attended first to their physical need of hunger before stepping into the important work of restoration. That would be just like Jesus; he would attend to the physical needs so that there would be abundant energy to go about the task at hand. Sometimes in the Christian walk when we awaken in that same position as Peter in which we feel we have failed so severely that we could not be used ever again. At that moment, many times God sends forth just the right song or sermon or person to fill our hungry heart before He begins that work of restoration. Once his hunger had been met, Christ invited Peter for a private walk along the beach. We know this private because while they are talking, it is noted in verse 20 “Then Peter, turning about, seeth the disciple whom Jesus loved following” They had to be walking a few steps ahead and speaking softly.

So they begin this walk, Peter hardly able to contain himself with the thoughts most likely running through his mind. It was the first time they were alone and Christ wanted to talk to him. Then came the piercing questions in a series of three; just like the denial had been a series of three so too the restoring questions are a series of three. Peter prior to the incident was so confident that he loved Christ better than the other disciples and that he would go to prison or death because of his love for Christ. Yet, Peter, came to realize that his own love was not perfect; instead he needed to rest on the assurance that Christ’s love was all sufficient. So it is that Christ asked Peter “Simon, son of Jonah, lovest thou me?” Note that Christ once more is calling Peter by his human name and not the spiritual name he had been given. Another point of great interest is the word “lovest”, In the latin languages, there are various distinctly different words that refer to love. One type of love is “agape” love. This is an unconditional, never failing, God like love. The other word for love that is used in these verses is phileo love (this refers to a general brother-like love) and would be considered a good type of love; but certainly, with limitations and flaws. It is more like an affection rather than a steady burning, unconditional love. Therefore, the conversation went something like this. Christ said, “Simon, do you love me with a burning, unconditional agape love?” Peter’s response is “yeah Lord, I love you with an affectionate, brother like Phileo love.” Christ commands Peter to feed his sheep. Remember once more this is the same Peter who had previously swore his love to be greater than anyone’s and now he hesitates in his own description of his love for Christ, doubting the depth and sincerity of it. . So, Christ again asks Peter, “Simon, do you love me with a burning, unconditional agape love?” Peter’s response again is “yeah Lord, I love you with an affectionate, brother like Phileo love” Christ commands Peter once more to feed his sheep, as demonstration of that love and devotion—He is calling Peter into service again. Then on the third question, Christ asks; “Simon, do you love with an affectionate, brother like love?” What a grievous question. Peter must have quickly thought as I have at times thought, “Lord is my ability to love you so flawed that I cannot even attempt to demonstrate it, does it not even show?” Yet, very humbly, Peter now replies: “Lord, you know all things, look into my heart Lord and You will not need to ask such a question.” Once more the Lord calls Peter into service with “Feed my sheep”

Peter had come to realize that he, himself was nothing and had nothing to boast of except for Jesus Christ. He came to realize that in the power of his own love, he would fail. His self-righteous spirit was broken completely. His heart had been broken for Christ and now restored was a humble heart that recognized that unless it is Christ’s love and work through him, there was no work at all. Now with all self pride stripped away, Peter was ready to become the preacher he needed to be. He found his own central core of hope in future grace set firm in Jesus Christ and Christ Alone-“the hope for Glory” As Peter writes in I Peter 1: “Who by him do believe in God, that raised him up from the dead, and gave him glory; that your faith and hope might be in God.” No longer could Peter’s hope and faith be in himself or even his ability to love Christ; rather, he depended and rested upon the love of God to sustain him and to work out this faith through him. That is why Peter was able to preach at Pentecost where 3000 were saved. It was no longer Peter’s boisterous voice; but Christ’s voice through Peter. God did not cause Peter to fail; but God did allow Satan to sift Peter and God took Peter’s failure and used it for Peter’s growth, the increased intimacy with Christ for Peter, and for the good of the kingdom. What an amazing God of Grace and Mercy and Love. God knew that the only source of joy, hope, strength and peace for Peter was an intimate relationship with God. Prior to Peter falling deeply with a broken spirit, broken heart and contrite heart; Peter’s pride stood in the way of this intimacy. Peter sometimes had trouble hearing the truth as he was caught up in his own desires. This was not the case with the restored Peter.

It was Peter’s own experience that lead him to write in I Peter 1: “3Blessed be the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, which according to his abundant mercy hath begotten us again unto a lively hope by the resurrection of Jesus Christ from the dead,

4To an inheritance incorruptible, and undefiled, and that fadeth not away, reserved in heaven for you,

5Who are kept by the power of God through faith unto salvation ready to be revealed in the last time.

6Wherein ye greatly rejoice, though now for a season, if need be, ye are in heaviness through manifold temptations:

7That the trial of your faith, being much more precious than of gold that perisheth, though it be tried with fire, might be found unto praise and honour and glory at the appearing of Jesus Christ:”

Was Satan about the business of sifting you lately? I daresay that he seems to be consistently having to sift something else from this wayward heart. For a moment, it is very painful; yet, I am much quicker now to turn to Christ and ask “What do I need to learn, Lord? Please show me what you have for me to do? Strengthen me, sustain me and transform me into Your image—whatever it takes”. God honors that kind of sincere prayer brought out of a broken spirit, a broken and contrite heart.

FEAR WALKED IN

Fear walked in

I let her stay

And Talk with me a while

What harm was she

A lonely soul

She could not mean me guile

But as she talked

With gentle voice

I listened to her tale

It seemed to touch

A chord in me

My heart began to wale

Jealousy

She was her friend

Who also came to stay

A little while

What could it harm?

As hours turned to days

Another friend

Came close behind

And anger was her name

I could not hear

The voice of God

While playing their wild games

I bid them leave

Get out of here

I screamed at them to go

I let them in

My fault I know

Oh, such a wretched foe

I cried to God

To make them leave

I want to feel your love

I need your joy

Your grandest peace

My eyes to see above

He heard my plea

He bade them leave

My faith He did restore

I felt His love

His warm embrace

How could I want for more?

I looked around

And then I saw

A precious love was gone

I’d lost him there

Oh, wretched self

I knew I’d done such wrong

So if you see

That one called fear

Come knocking at your door

Don’t let her in

Bolt tight the locks

Or run to distant shores

Hold tight to God

His truth, His love

And never doubt His word

For fear will bring

Along her friends

Your loss, your fault, Absurd

Give me this Valley

GIVE ME THIS VALLEY

I cried, Lord, please help me climb

This mountain so sublime

Full of health and wealth and fame

Surely there I’d praise your name

But I heard a whispering voice

Said, For you that’s not my choice

I want you in this valley deep

Where your joy my heart will keep

Lord, you can take that mountain high

And let me stay here by your side

In this valley filled with pain

Where I know you know my name

Give me a life where I might live

Dependent on the Grace you give

I’d rather be here by your side

Than on that great mountainside

Give me the faith and hope that’s yours

As Your spirit through me pours

To a world in need of you

Give me strength for them to view

Let me show the Glory of Your Hope

Far from that slippery slope

In the valley where you stand

Let me walk and hold Your hand

Though the Valley may be dark

You’re the light, my precious spark

You are all I need to know

Let me walk now here below

Give me the love of Your great smile

That casts aside my selfish guile

Remove my thoughts of self pity

Your heart to see clearly

You are the only one I need

For my soul you have freed

By the valley that You walked

To the cross where you were mawked

So let me walk this valley too

Where there your heart I knew

Keep your mountains filled with pride

Let me stay here at Your side.

Whiter than Snow

Whiter Than Snow

though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as snow, though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.” Isaiah 1:18

Throughout my life one of those things that I have most struggled with is my own sense of failure and guilt. This becomes even more prevalent when facing a trial. What did I do this time to deserve this punishment? Guilt and self-disdain quickly become utter despair. Then that despair can lead to a paralyzing depression which blocks my ability to accomplish anything or to feel love. In the center of this disdaining despair, I have found that I cannot seem to feel God’s presence. Everything appears as though the world is crashing in around me and I am certain in that moment it must be my fault. In those moments I become acutely aware of the fact that I will never be good enough to earn God’s love by my own efforts. Though this is a struggle I battle with each valley moment; yet, I have learned that guilt is Satan’s trap. Momentarily my testimony for Christ becomes nonexistent. In fact, anger builds within as I battle against this guilt and hatred of myself. In those moments I have found myself plummeting downward farther and farther. That anger results in my snapping wrong words to those around me which then drives me ever deeper into despair. There are some direct consequences of sin which result in trials. For example, if I were to steal; then I might be in jail or if I decide to be promiscuous; then HIV may be a direct consequence of that decision. Yet, because Christ has covered my sins from the moment I accepted Him as my Savior; He can and will make something beautiful from even my failures when I bring them to the cross. Salvation is available by Grace and Grace alone. Although God may allow the consequences of my sin to occur; He is not standing up in heaven looking down waiting to swat us. Instead, He looks down with great sorrow and tears over my failure to understand that His plan for me is the best. He knows that my failures are a result of my inability to fully comprehend His love and the price He paid for me.

My struggle with guilt and self-disdain has been my greatest thorn in the flesh. Even in childhood, I worked constantly striving toward perfection in hopes to be liked by those around me. I was an overweight little girl with a speech impediment; so, I worked hard toward pleasing the teachers and being a good student. I remember an incident in first grade. There was a little boy that I admired and he had used his crayons to color inside his desk. Since I thought his desk was so pretty, I decided to color inside mine. When the teacher angrily asked me who had colored my desk, I became frightened and said, “I don’t know.” Consequently, she paddled me and made me stay in during recess to clean my desk. This should have been the end of the story; but I carried around the guilt for years. The remainder of that year, my eyes faced the floor whenever I had to go up front to answer a question or talk to the teacher. Inside, I felt I was a failure; despite my graduating first grade as #1 in my class. Three years later, I remember some adult just as conversation said, “You gotten spanked at school, yet?” Then quickly my little voice said “No.” I was too ashamed to tell the truth; yet, I worried over that lie for many years to come. I somehow believed that God was going to reach down and strike me with a bolt of lightning. I have struggled with that same sense of fear and guilt throughout my life and even more so when a valley comes. Remember God’s answer to Paul regarding his thorn in the flesh? God said, “My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness” 2 Corinthians 12:9. His Grace is sufficient to cover my failures, my sins and my guilt. He has gently reminded me of this truth each step of my journey. So, if you find yourself as a Christian burdened down by guilt; please take this journey with me. If you have never accepted Christ as your Savior, then also take this journey so as to find the only way to have your sin guilt removed.

When I first began my Master’s program in late 1997, I would stay with my 104 year old Grandfather. He was essentially blind from macular degeneration and nearly deaf; yet, he lived alone and cared for himself. This patriarch of the faith spent every day in prayer and Bible study. He had special earphones and a taped Bible that he continued to study daily. I often joked that if I needed anything of God- I just needed to ask my Grandfather because I was certain he had a telephone to God, a direct hotline that never had any static. One of the times I was there he began to expound on Isaiah 1:18though your sins be as scarlet, they shall be white as snow, though they be red like crimson, they shall be as wool.” He would tell me, as a reminder, that after accepting Christ, one’s soul could no longer sin. The soul is made Whiter than snow. He would explain that our flesh could sin, but our soul could not sin. Our soul had been washed in the blood of Christ and would remain sinless from the moment we accepted Christ and throughout eternity.

Though I understood what this great Christian patriarch was saying, I failed to fully grasp the depth of those words or to accept the full gravity of the meanings. I understood with my intellect; yet, my own guilt would at times block this truth from my heart. The truth that we are made “whiter than snow” has such a depth of meaning and is the true expression of Grace demonstrated by God. Why do I fail to be able to claim this truth? It is in those dark hours of despair that He has led me to look once more at this truth. I began to search the scripture about “white as snow”. That review led me to find the other uses of “whiter than snow” or white as wool.” That search led me to discover that the most frequent uses of those words were found to be in reference to Christ or God himself.

In Daniel 7:9 it is written “And the Ancient of days did sit whose garment was white as snow and hair of his head like the pure wool.” Again in Matthew 28:3 when speaking of Jesus as he ascended from the grave “ His countenance was like lightening and his raiment white as snow, and the hair of his head like the pure wool.” Furthermore it is found in Matthew 28:3 when speaking of Jesus as he ascended from the grave “His countenance was like lightening and his raiment white as snow.” It is amazing to me that the main references to “white as snow or in reference to wool, refers to the countenance of Christ, which represents the significance of these words, whiter than snow when referring to the believer. That though our sins are like “scarlet” when washed in the blood of Christ our souls take on “His image” and we become, as He is – sinless and blameless before God.

I also found this reference in Mark 9:3 as Peter, James and John transcended a high mountain “He was transfigured before them. And his raiment became shining, exceeding white as snow, so as no fuller on earth can white them.” Christ’s raiment was “whiter than snow” is also referred to in Revelations 1: 13-14 “ And in the midst of the candlesticks one like unto the Son of man his head and his hair were while like wool, as white as snow.”

Wow, when He says, “though your sins be as scarlet they shall be white as snow” He is referring to a transformation of our sins to being spotless like Jesus. Covered in His blood we are accounted as having perfection. This is through faith and grace. Paul refers to Abraham in Romans 4:3, by saying “Abraham believed God and it was counted unto him for righteousness.” Our faith and belief are counted for righteousness. “Though your sins be as scarlet”- refers to blood guiltiness. There are some who would try to say, “But I try to live a good life-I haven’t done anything that bad.” But as is noted in Romans 3:23 “For all have sinned and fallen short of the glory of God.” None of us through works of our own can find righteousness or wash away our sin nature- we remain red as scarlet. Only the blood of Christ can make our garments “white as snow” “But we are an unclean thing, and all our righteousnesses are as filthy rags; and we all do fade as a leaf; and our iniquities like the wind, have taken us away.” Isaiah 63:

Now Crimson is a red colorfast dye of the scarlet worm-it is a stain very difficult to eradicate. Therefore, the symbolic removal of this stain and turning it to white as wool represents something so difficult that man could not himself remove. It is a picture of the life changing Grace of God that delivers us from our sins. Our sins a deep stain impossible to remove is made white as wool by the precious blood of Christ.

This is truly of Grace and grace alone. “For by Grace are ye saved through faith, and that not of yourselves it is the Gift of God-Not of works, lest any man should boast.” Romans 5:1 It is through faith that grace abounds unto righteousness. “even so by the righteousness of one (Jesus Christ) the free gift came upon all men unto justification of by the obedience of one shall many be made righteous” Romans 5: 19-20

This righteousness that is accounted to each who believe in Jesus Christ by faith is not based on works. Therefore, it cannot be a source of neither pride nor guilt. Our works cannot alter it. The soul is free from all sin-past, present and future. The soul can no longer sin. “Whosoever is born of God doth not commit sin; for his seed remaineth in him: and he cannot sin, because he is born of God.” I John 3:9. This perfection of the soul, this covering of our sins is forever due to the sacrifice of Christ. “But this man, after he had offered the one sacrifice for sin forever, sat down on the right hand of God; from henceforth expecting till his enemies be made his footstool. For by one offering he has perfected forever them that are sanctified.” Hebrews 10: 12-14

It is difficult for us to recognize the magnitude of His Grace; but truly He has taken our scarlet stains of sin and washed them whiter than snow. He has made us sons-joint heirs of His kingdom. “In the fullness of time, God sent forth his Son, made of a woman, made under the law. To redeem them that were under the law, that we might receive the adoption of sons. And because ye are sons, God hath sent forth the Spirit of His Son into your hearts, crying Abba Father. Wherefore thou art no more a servant, but a son; and if a son, then an heir of God through Christ.”Galatians 4:4-7 Being covered by the blood of Christ, we are seen by the Father as “whiter than snow-like wool” just as He has described His Son. He is about the business of perfecting that transformation; yet, God always sees the finished product. “For whom He did foreknow He also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of His Son” Romans 8:29

At the point of accepting Christ as our Savior, we are forgiven of our sins. Additionally we are given Christ’s righteousness-placed in our account. Being accounted righteous means we are no longer captives of neither guilt nor sin’s hold. It has been my experience that when I get buried in my own guilt, I am more likely to keep falling into the same sin. Therefore, guilt does not release me from sin’s hold on my life. Only grace and faith can do that. Besides, guilt is a very prideful thing when confronted with scripture. It is saying, “God, Christ may have died for my sin; but my sin is too big for You to forgive.” When we are guilt-laden we are focused on our self and our sin rather than the blood of Christ. We do not become justified by wallowing in our guilt; we are justified by Christ. The truth of that sets you free from both sin and the guilt thereof. When you are condemning yourself, you are focused on you, not on God. 2 Corinthians 3: 17-18 says, “17Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty. 18But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord.” So I urge you and myself to take your eyes off of our failures and look deep into the face of Christ.

Many fear to teach the truth concerning Grace. They fear that people will utilize this as a license to sin more. The truth gives too much liberty they think. Despite the inability of our soul to sin once saved- our flesh remains filled with the sin nature as is so clearly stated by Paul the apostle. “For we know that the law is spiritual: but I am carnal sold under sin. For that which I do I allow not, for that which I would, that do I not, what I hate that I do. If then I do that which I would not, I consent unto the law that it is good. Now it is no more I that do it, but sin that dwelleth in me. For I know that in me (that is in my flesh) dwelleth no good thing for to will is present with me, but how to perform that which is good I find not. For the good that I would I do not but the evil which I would not, that I do. I find then a law, that, when I would do good, evil, is present with me. For I delight in the law of God after the in ward man But I see another law in my members warring against the law of my mind and bringing me into the captivity to the law of sin which is in my members. O wretched man that I am Who shall deliver me from the body of this death? I thank God through Jesus Christ our Lord. So then with the mind I myself serve the law of God, but with the flesh the law of sin.” Romans 7: 15-25.

Our flesh, our sinful nature still sins: however the Holy Spirit which dwells in us draws us toward the likeness of Christ. “There is therefore no condemnation to them which are in Christ Jesus, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. For the law of the Spirit of life in Christ Jesus hath made me free from the law of sin and death. For what the law could not do, in that it was weak through flesh, God sending his own Son in the likeness of sinful flesh and for sin condemned sin in the flesh, that the righteousness of the law might be fulfilled in us, who walk not after the flesh, but after the Spirit. Romans 8:1-4 Once we take our focus off of our guilt and ourselves to place that focus on Jesus; we actually sin less. The reason being when we are focused on Christ, we see sin for what it really is-a barrier to demonstrating the praise to Christ that would bring Him the Glory we want. The more we focus on Christ, the more we love Him. The more we love Him, the more we want to bring smiles to His face rather than tears of sorrow. We become compelled by love to please Him, not out of fear.

My belated husband suffered greatly from a bipolar disorder which tormented him day and night. That spilled over at times to his becoming very abusive. The early years of my marriage led me to obey him out of fear. I remained frustrated, victimized, and doomed to fail over and over. There came a moment in which the eyes of my heart began to see him clearly as this tormented soul. Suddenly, my reason for trying to please him came out of love instead of fear. I wanted to ease his discomfort. No longer was I a victim. I was now empowered to love. I know in some ways this may be a poor illustration; yet, God used those years to teach me about unconditional love. He allowed me, this imperfect human, to demonstrate unconditional love. There I began to understand God’s unconditional love for me which was greater than anything I could display. God does not have a bipolar abusive personality; but when we walk around with guilt and fear of His punishment, we are acting as though He does. Instead, He is looking at us with unconditional love which only wants the best for us.

What possibly can all this really mean to us? It means we have liberty and freedom from both guilt and worry concerning our Christian walk. It means that when I fall face down into the mud, God does not gleefully look down and rub my face in it. There in that pit of mud I may keep my head down as I pitifully cry out to God of my failure. At that very moment, God reaches down, takes my hand, and with gentle voice says as He looks through the blood of Christ; “What sin my child? I don’t see any. Come. Take my hand. We have work that needs to be done. The fields are white with harvest.” He gently pulls me up, dusts me off, kisses my cheek and off we go together. Such love and grace He displays. Remember this salvation and this walk with God are dependent on faith and faith only. We are free from the bondage of the law. Let loose the chains that weigh you down. Accept God’s full grace—knowing that once saved—your soul has been washed “whiter than snow”. Let go of your chains of guilt and worry—allow the Holy Spirit to perform His work through you. Allow God’s righteous work to be performed in your body by the Spirit. Take that deep breath of fresh air that fills your body and soul, that breath that comes from the freedom of walking in Grace. Oh, what Amazing and magnificent Grace that God hath poured forth on us.

Let us Pray

“Dear Heavenly Father, Thank you for your Grace that has covered all my sins. Thank you for the sacrifice of your Son that I might be freed forever from the bondage of sin, guilt and worry—that my soul might be “whiter than snow”. My God thou art truly an awesome God, full of Mercy and Grace. Guide me with thy Spirit, direct my life. Let your righteousness Shine forth through me. Help me when I am weak and fail to claim this truth in my own life. Be my faith when I can no longer believe. Thank you for this love you have so freely given and thank you for your unconditional love even when I fail to love myself. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.