Would I love you Even More

Would I Love You Even More

I felt the searing, pelting rain

Deep within my soul

I was uncertain where to turn

Or what should be my goal

 

I gazed upon a cross so far

That stood upon a hill

A Lion strong had died a Lamb

He gave His life at will

 

That I so undeserving be

Might see His face of love

A Glimpse of His true Glory

To fill me with from above

 

Would I love You just the same

When my life is filled with shame

When pain is all I know

Would my love for You still show?

 

Can I show Your Glory still

Accept this as Your will

When my heart is broke in two

Cradled in Your hands, renew

As on Your hope I soar

Would I love You even more?

 

This poem I wrote in 2010 after having surgery.  It had been a surgery in the which they had to reconstruct my abdominal wall with pig fascia.  So many prior surgeries had left my abdominal wall weak and I had multiple hernias.  It was necessary to attach the pig fascia to my rib cage which being very innervated resulted in a lot of pain at first.  The first day post surgery, I had lost my intravenous site and no one was able to start an IV immediately; meaning no pain medicine could be given.  As I lay there, I remember that there was a moment in which the pain was so intense that my body trembled, I could barely whisper when anyone asked me a question.  At first, I started to pray to God to just ease the pain; then, the thought entered my mind as to how much more was the pain Christ had suffered when they had beaten Him.  With the flesh torn and the certain bruises encircling His rib cage, followed by all the torturous day while being brought to trial.  No pain medicine would be brought to Him. They then hung Him to a cross with nails driven through His hands and feet.  Suddenly, I realized that my pain was nothing compared to what He so willingly bore for me.  My love for Him grew that day as I whispered a Thank You to my Lord and Savior.  Peace filled my soul.  Without pain and suffering can we ever realize the price He paid for us?  If I never faced trials would I realize my need for Him and the peace He provides?   If I never suffered loss would I be so content with counterfeit joys that I would never seek and find the only True Joy that is found in Him? 

2 Corinthians 1: 3 Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort;

4 Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God.

5 For as the sufferings of Christ abound in us, so our consolation also aboundeth by Christ.

6 And whether we be afflicted, it is for your consolation and salvation, which is effectual in the enduring of the same sufferings which we also suffer: or whether we be comforted, it is for your consolation and salvation.

7 And our hope of you is stedfast, knowing, that as ye are partakers of the sufferings, so shall ye be also of the consolation.

 

Question:  Can you remember a time when pain, trial or suffering  resulted in your loving God more?

 

Hope you enjoy this video I found, as I think this song is so beautiful. 

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Rnjc1zUXKec

 

© 2013 Effie Darlene Barba

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