It was not what I thought I would be doing at age 59–moving across the country, alone to start a new career. Once I am there I will be near one of my sons; but I am leaving behind the other son and his family. I can still hear the voice of my grandson, "Can we go to Grammy’s house, please? Grammy, love you." I knew in July that I would be going; but, I thought I had time to do this slowly and go within 2 years. That was not God’s plan. His plan was that on September 10 I put the 90 day notice on the desk of my employer of the past 10 years; even before a new job could be found. God had been orchestrating events in the background for over a year which would ascertain that I do as He asked and on His timing. He knew I might procrastinate if He had not spoken with bold clarity as to when. As is often the case, it required great pain to get my attention since too often I become content and require the jolt of a cattle prod to move out of my comfort zone. We very often become like Moses with a million excuses which we lay before God as to why we can’t or why not now. This process of preparing to move, the short sale, the financial implications of moving, the unending paperwork, the stabbing pain that comes from going to work with each day newer discoveries of how deep the lies have spread, the pain of putting mom into a nursing home until I can get settled, finding homes for the cats, packing, preparing to move, and all the emotions of a move press deep within from all sides. My heart would tend to break beneath the weight of it all, fear would grip my heart were it not for these three truths.
1. I know who God is. I know of His sovereignty. I know of His Omnipotence. I know of His Omniscience. I know how much He loves me. 2 Timothy 1:12 "For the which cause I also suffer these things: nevertheless I am not ashamed: for I know whom I have believed, and am persuaded that he is able to keep that which I have committed unto him against that day."
2. I know His Plan is for my good. Psalm 84:11 " For the Lord God is a sun and shield: the Lord will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly. 12 O Lord of hosts, blessed is the man that trusteth in thee."
3. I trust Him to work out every detail with the perfection that only God can. Only in that manner can He be fully Glorified. Trusting His Heart, His strength, and His ability to do what would be humanly impossible–displays His Glory to the world as He performs the miracle and as His Child stands firm in faith. Figuratively, my willingness to jump off the bridge with a rapid current rushing over rocks below me; knowing He is catching me–brings Glory and Honor to His name. 2 Corinthians 1: "20 For all the promises of God in him are yea, and in him Amen, unto the glory of God by us." There is no yea, nay in this. He calls me go and my answer is not, how? My answer is yes, sir; immediately sir; I know you have the plan. Lead me on, Lord and Master of My Life. With excitement, firmness, and unwavering faith I step forward into my destined future.
So, it is with boldness, firmness of faith–I turn my eyes toward Missouri. Much like Abraham when He by faith left His home to march into the unknown toward the promised land. Romans 4: "20 He staggered not at the promise of God through unbelief; but was strong in faith, giving glory to God;21 And being fully persuaded that, what he had promised, he was able also to perform.
22 And therefore it was imputed to him for righteousness."
I am not certain of all that God has planned or why it must be so rapidly done; but, I know He has an incredible, wonderful, joyous future there in the center of His Will for My Life.