So Tiny I

So Tiny I

I want my way

I cry I shout

As God says no

I whine and pout

 

I Think too much

Of who I am

That I should shun

My precious Lamb

 

Who knows full well

What’s best for me

And weaves His plan

Where I can’t see

 

Awaken Lord

These eyes to see

A tiny glimpse

Of Majesty

 

If I could glimpse

Upon Your face

These selfish thoughts

Could I erase?

 

So help me Lord

Lay down all pride

That I might revel

At Your side

 

And never grumble

No matter what

That Your full work

It might be wrought

 

Let me see

How big You are

Who spoke a breath

And placed a star

 

So tiny I

What can I do

Without Your Grace

To make me new

 

So amazing is this truth that often we think we know what we want and we beg God.  But one thing that I have found is that He is the only one who knows what is best for me.  He has said  in Psalm 37: 4Delight thyself also in the LORD: and he shall give thee the desires of thine heart. “   So then there arises two questions,  1.  “What are the desires of your heart when you are delighting in Him?” and 2. “How do I delight myself in the Lord?”    To answer these one must again return to scripture.  All that we do and all that we say should be about “Glorifying Christ and thus Glorifying God”   As we delight ourselves in God, we become focused on How Big is His Glory and how tiny we are.  We stand in awe of His Grace, His Love and His Mercy.  We become aware of His magnificence and then our heart becomes willing and accepting of His will.  We then desire always to be more aware of His presence, more cognizant of His will, more joyous to be His servant wherever that may lead us.  How precious He becomes to us and our desire becomes whatever it takes to transform us into His image, even the fires and trials.  We even may look at each trial as God’s means of transforming us into the image of His Son and thereby never fall down in the midst of the trial, rather we look upward to Him who is our Savior, our King and ask, “What wondrous purpose do You have for me in this?   Reveal Yourself to all who surround me as You and I confront this trial?  Let me see Your hand of love in this, that I might even rejoice in this tribulation.  “Romans 5: 

1Therefore being justified by faith, we have peace with God through our Lord Jesus Christ:

2By whom also we have access by faith into this grace wherein we stand, and rejoice in hope of the glory of God.

3And not only so, but we glory in tribulations also: knowing that tribulation worketh patience;

4And patience, experience; and experience, hope:

5And hope maketh not ashamed; because the love of God is shed abroad in our hearts by the Holy Ghost which is given unto us.

6For when we were yet without strength, in due time Christ died for the ungodly”     Only then as we see His purpose and remember His Omniscience and Majesty, reigning over the earth, do we trust whatever is His Choice in our lives—no matter what”   It is amazing as our focus changes to Him, our desires change and as our desires change, we truly become filled with joy, hope and peace in the darkest of trials.   So how do we delight in the Lord, by meditating on His word day and night—seeking Him, spending time talking to Him.   Funny, I use to want someone in my life to be a companion; someone to love me.  Now, I rejoice in the fact that I am single because I have more time to spend with Him.   If God has blessed you with a companion, don’t leave him or her to be alone with God—that is not God’s plan—together shut off the TV and study His word. as well as find your moments to be alone with God.   Yet, if you as I have been widowed and find yourself alone, do not despair—God is your companion.  Let me close with this verse for you to meditate upon, a promise that God stands upon. 

 

Psalm 1:

1Blessed is the man that walketh not in the counsel of the ungodly, nor standeth in the way of sinners, nor sitteth in the seat of the scornful.

2But his delight is in the law of the LORD; and in his law doth he meditate day and night.

3And he shall be like a tree planted by the rivers of water, that bringeth forth his fruit in his season; his leaf also shall not wither; and whatsoever he doeth shall prosper.

 

Love, Effie Darlene Barba