Life is filled with so many mysteries. Yet, none are more profound than the heart of our emotions; which is love. Because we are born with the need to be loved; we find ourselves also easily entangled by many other emotions including despair, sorrow, jealousy, hope, fear, joy, delight and love. Furthermore, mingled within this web of emotional ups and downs, lies the core motivations of the human race. Have you not ever wondered about our dependence upon our emotions? Could it be that is what points us even more toward there being a Creator! Certainly, beyond the intricacy of the Universe itself; there is the intricacy of our emotions. Haven’t you ever wondered about our inner desire for Transcendent Love?
BEAUTY AND THE BEAST
Yesterday, I went to see beauty and the beast. Perhaps, this is my favorite of the Disney movies; because, I always imagined it as my life with Pete. Because Pete was tortured by his bipolar disease; I lived a life never knowing whether today would be violent rage or gentle kindness. Despite this, I could see past the exterior and loved him for the beauty hidden deep aside. Although, I believed God kept me there to ultimately lead Pete to Christ before his untimely death; (which He did) God also used Pete to teach me the truth about love.
You see, behind the mask; Pete truly loved me, even more than I did he. I just didn’t realize it. The day he chose to take his life; it was because he loved me and wanted to never hurt me again. It wasn’t about himself anymore. He took his own life, to give me back mine; after all that we had walked through together. Not trusting his own ability to not injure me in a fit of rage, he chose to leave me instead; because he loved me. That was something very hard to understand at first; yet, was in the center of my beginning to realize the power of unconditional, transcendent love.
A LESSON IN LOVE
Years after Pete’s death, I searched to find love again. I need ask forgiveness to those I may have hurt along the way. Deep within, I wanted to feel that bounce of joy at seeing the one I loved. The renewed pounding in the chest just to see them walking toward me. After all, that was how I always felt when Pete came near. The exuberance of both joy and sorrow that proved that I was fully alive; because I loved and was loved. Still, no one replaced Pete; throughout my search. Why wouldn’t God grant that one desire?
God was the one waiting for me to realize that God was the transcendent love I longed for. Furthermore, He had blessed me with lessons in love that transcend the normal realities. It was God who had sent Pete into my life to teach me the truth of unconditional, transcendent love that would go far beyond time and space. My earthly love had been only a glimpse of the greater love which is mine in Christ Jesus. That is why I wrote this poem today. I do hope that it warms your heart; particularly, if yours is broken today.
A Transcendent Love
By Effie Darlene Barba
I searched for love that would transcend
The spans of time, to never end
To find someone to call my own
And carry me to heights unknown
Of joyous hope, a dearest friend
Love’s mystery is so profound
The sea of tears for which I’ve drowned
To turn to search for love again
Believing that I could begin
From losing you, I could rebound
And as the years, the time went by
Sometimes, I still would start to cry
A song, a word that brought to mind
My love for you, my heart resigned
Your gentle kiss, your last goodbye
Love truly is a mystery
A part of you remains with me
Although you left me long ago
And left this journey here below
You live within my memory
And so, I found that deep within
A greater love was mine to win
It was God’s love there all along
That taught to me a true love song
A life of joy and hope begin
Oh, what a wondrous song of Grace
That love should be His Glorious face
That broken hearts should find Him there
With eyes of love so gentle, fair
His arms reach forth our hearts embrace
That through our pain, we come to view
The depth of love, when love is true
The patient, gentle voice of love
That bid Him from His throne above
To bear a cross for me and you
Although you left me long ago
And I still walk this earth below
I’ve found the love that I did seek
Though of His love you did not speak
You taught me the truth that I must know
You taught my blinded eyes to see
The depth of love God had for me
I’d thought that I was there for you
To teach God’s love for you to view
My sorrow brought humility
There in your broken world of fear
You reached in love to draw me near
I see it now, it was God’s Grace
That brought us both to seek His face
Through rivers built upon a tear
I found a love that would transcend
The spans of time, to never end
I found someone to call my own
And carry me to heights unknown
Of joyous hope, a dearest friend
Concluding tweets
[bctt tweet=”Because God created us out of His love, to shower us with love; we long for transcendent love” username=”effiedarlene”]
[bctt tweet=”When your heart is broken, did you ever think; how God must feel when we reject Him?” username=”effiedarlene”]
If you enjoyed this poem, consider reading these other poems as well: Whispers of Love (a poem) or
The Song of a Butterfly-Freed to Love as Gods Beloved
This is an original Drawing by an amazing artist whom I love and admire. Please check out his work at http://roninron.com He did this drawing with a piece of paper and a pencil. Because it is protected under copyright, it cannot be copied or duplicated without permission.
©Effie Darlene Barba, 2017
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