This past two weeks I have spent with my family in Missouri.  That would of it’s own have been magical as I watched my son marry his princess and best friend; yet, I cannot fully tell you of the tremendous joy of watching God fulfill a promise made so long ago.  Many years ago, as a young woman I sometimes wondered of God’s love for me.  It seemed that no matter how much I loved Him, I just kept stumbling.  More than anything, I wanted to hear His voice and to follow that command.  There then had come a command that I could not fully understand; still, I chose to follow–much like Abraham when God told Him to leave everything to go on a journey through the wilderness to find a land that God had promised.  There were great sorrows and pitfalls along this journey that God had asked me to follow.  I had told God many times that were it only I, following it would be easier; but how was I to protect my dear children through this perilous path He had chosen.  Every time I asked, His promises came in a strong, firm voice; "I, God, will protect your children and will show them favor.  I will bless them with faith, hope, and joy.  All I need for you to do is trust me and obey my command in this matter."  

Hebrews 11:

11 Now faith is the substance of things hoped for, the evidence of things not seen.

2 For by it the elders obtained a good report.

3 Through faith we understand that the worlds were framed by the word of God, so that things which are seen were not made of things which do appear.

I wish that I could say that my faith was always strong enough as to never doubt; yet, the doubting always lead to prayer.  Many tears have I shed as I watched seemingly helpless at times at the sorrows my children faced because I had chosen to obey God’s command.  At times I wondered if my own failures would be their demise; maybe, I didn’t understand what God wanted.  Maybe I was a fool.  Then in these last two weeks, I watched as my dear daughter, Melissa, interacted with her daughter and husband; and, I knew that God had kept His promise in her life.  Four year old Natalie talked to me last night about how much God loves her, my heart leaped for joy. She is such a beautiful, gentle child.  Ron, always has an inner calm and wisdom that goes beyond a normal human–while his faith remains steady and firm.  He has a beautiful wife, who demonstrates her love and devotion every day in addition to his beautiful children.  His son is extremely gifted and daughter is a delightful joy.  God had kept His promise in the life of Ron.  Then, Saturday, I watched as Alberto married his best friend and princess.  The entire ceremony was one based on their faith and devotion to God and each other.  It was like a fairy tale wedding and love story that couldn’t have been matched by any of those that Hollywood could pretend to create.   Once more, I knew that God had fulfilled His promise to me.  I remembered my little children, how noble and innocent they were and how proud I have always been of each and everyone of them.  They have flourished into nobility beyond my wildest dreams and hopes; because God always keeps His promises by His strength and His power.  Faith is never dependent on me or even my abilities, it depends on Him.  Hallelujah to the God of Heaven and Earth.  

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=0HSYxDTWUVw

My dear friends and followers, I wanted to take a moment to reflect.  I have not meant to be distant this week; but as I explained I having been traveling to Missouri for my son’s upcoming wedding.  My heart is so overfilled with joy that it has been difficult to find the time to write.  Yet, I thought I would take a moment for reflection.  The drive here was so refreshing.  There is nothing to compare with being alone in a car driving hour by hour alone with God.  So much that He and I needed to talk about.  Life gets so busy sometimes that we tend to neglect that very important one on one time with Him.  After all, who better to guide my life than God, who knows all things. On my way, I stopped in Southeast Missouri to meet with my stepson who is truly my son in Christ.  I am still amazed how God can use me as His instrument, even in those moments when I think myself so unworthy to be His ambassador.    After arriving, I have been very busy–finished my paperwork (ok yes work came with me–but that is now done).  I have had a wonderful time just watching the man my son has become.  Went to church at the The Crossing in Columbia Missouri with my son and fiancé.  I have attended with them by podcast for a long time, so it was nice to be able to attend in person.  Today,  my other son with his family and my daughter with her family are arriving as well.  Could any woman be as blessed as I am right now.  A lot of work still needs to be done in preparation for their arrival.  My brother-in-law and his daughter arrive tomorrow from Mexico as well.  Weddings cause one to reflect as my mind goes back fondly remembering how much I loved my belated husband, Pete.  Has it really been 19 years since he went home to be with Christ?  Well enough of my wandering down memory lane.  I wanted you, my readers, to know that I have not been without a lot of thinking about you.  I pray for you, just as Paul did as noted in the book of Colossians. 

Colossians

2 For I would that ye knew what great conflict I have for you, …., and for as many as have not seen my face in the flesh;

2 That their hearts might be comforted, being knit together in love, and unto all riches of the full assurance of understanding, to the acknowledgement of the mystery of God, and of the Father, and of Christ;

3 In whom are hid all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.

4 And this I say, lest any man should beguile you with enticing words.

5 For though I be absent in the flesh, yet am I with you in the spirit, joying and beholding your order, and the stedfastness of your faith in Christ.

6 As ye have therefore received Christ Jesus the Lord, so walk ye in him:

7 Rooted and built up in him, and stablished in the faith, as ye have been taught, abounding therein with thanksgiving.

I pray that you know Christ as your Savior and that your are rooted and built up in Him in whom are hid all the treasures of wisdom and knowledge.

Listen to this song and know that I have sung it for you today.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=zkIY9M1XDLM     This is my prayer for you

Just a note to let all of you know that I am driving across country to go to my son’s wedding.  There will be times when I have no internet service and times with family that I may not be able to post or email anything.  I will miss our morning chats and I pray that God inspire me ever more with your needs so that I might be given wisdom in writing so as to help you along this journey called life on earth.  I did realize how important to our walk on this earth is faith.  From first knowing Christ and through every step of this journey until we stand before Him, our walk is one of faith based upon the glimpses of His Glory that He has so blessed us by revealing.  Even our faith is a gift, though at times we want to resist it. 

Ephesians 2: 7 That in the ages to come he might shew the exceeding riches of his grace in his kindness toward us through Christ Jesus.

8 For by grace are ye saved through faith; and that not of yourselves: it is the gift of God:

9 Not of works, lest any man should boast.

Yesterday while driving through Atlanta, this voice from my GPS was guiding me through when suddenly there came the voice with a change in plans and direction.  Out of nowhere, I was to get off the highway this voice had placed me on and go a different route entirely.  I obeyed.  Still, I was very frustrated and re-entered my final destination thinking that the machine must have gotten something wrong.  He then kept telling me to make a U-turn and take the highway South; but I was going North "Why South?"  Besides I could not see any safe place to U-turn; after all, I am in Atlanta Traffic (not the best drivers in the world–sorry, those of you from Atlanta, just an observation).  So I got angry and frustrated with this machine and was talking back to computerized phone with no senses or ability to care.   The farther I was winding through these streets, now in the heart of whatever suburb I had landed while the voice kept directing "turn right here, turn left next light, turn right".  Finally, since I was lost and had no clue where I was; I had no choice but to trust this voice and follow.  That is faith.  Should I have trusted sooner rather than resisting so? Certainly.   There are two major points I want to address.

Point #1:  Everyday we put our faith in electronic devices, airplanes, cars, other people, and even parts of creation to work properly (like the sunrise); yet, we have such difficulty trusting Omnipotent, Omniscient God-who created us.  How foolish are we.

Point #2:  Why are we so foolish as to believe that we know better and keep resisting God as He says, "Go right, Go left, make a U-Turn".  Ultimately we will give in and trust; when exhausted and utterly lost.  Why not trust at the first command?

Well, I must hit the road again for another day of driving.  God as my guide, I must also face another day of life. 

So Jesus Take the Wheel, http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lydBPm2KRaU

"One Sabbath morning, I preached from the text, ‘My God, My God, why has Thou forsaken Me?’ and though I did not say so, yet I preached my own experience. I heard my own chains clank while I tried to preach to my fellow-prisoners in the dark; but I could not tell why I was brought into such an awful horror of darkness, for which I condemned myself. On the following Monday evening, a man came to see me who bore all the marks of despair upon his countenance. His hair seemed to stand up right, and his eyes were ready to start from their sockets. He said to me, after a little parleying, ‘I never before, in my life, heard any man speak who seemed to know my heart. Mine is a terrible case; but on Sunday morning you painted me to the life, and preached as if you had been inside my soul.’ By God’s grace I saved that man from suicide, and led him into gospel light and liberty; but I know I could not have done it if I had not myself been confined in the dungeon in which he lay. I tell you the story, brethren, because you sometimes may not understand your own experience, and the perfect people may condemn you for having it; but what know they of God’s servants? You and I have to suffer much for the sake of the people of our charge … You may be in Egyptian darkness, and you may wonder why such a horror chills your marrow; but you may be altogether in the pursuit of your calling, and be led of the Spirit to a position of sympathy with desponding minds" Charles Spurgeon

As pointed out by Charles Spurgeon, those who are called to preach or to teach of Christ are called to be willing to undergo moments of great sorrow and burden.  Sometimes, God allows the preacher or teacher to undergo seasons or moments of great pain as He lays the emotional burdens of another upon them so they can teach.  This usually occurs prior to meeting the other person which causes the preacher/teacher to wonder and doubt as to why they suddenly feel so alone or so burdened or so laden with guilt.  As they struggle with their own lack of faith and grasp hold of the scripture with great passion, they are then able to speak or write with the greater sensitivity and the connection is made with the other.  This does not mean that to teach to a prostitute, I must become a prostitute or to help a drunkard I must become one; rather, it is even more complex because I may be placed in a situation where it appears the only way out–yet, grace steps in and prevails before falling.  Extreme example?  Ok, more realistic, I may be turmoil-ed with inner conflict and feel as though God has deserted me; yet, in my search and hunger to feel His abiding presence again I write something that helps someone else–can I see His mighty Hand Working through my sorrow?  Perhaps, every illness that I have suffered is so that I might help another find Christ in the midst of their suffering illness.  We need be thankful to all those servants of God who are willing to suffer great trials and sorrow so as to be teachers for Christ.  Particularly those whose lives have lived out such an example of following Christ, never compromising such as Charles Stanley, Alistair Begg, Michael Youssef, David Jeremiah, and John Piper, to name a few.  I wish that my entire life were an example that I could be proud of; but, perhaps that too was allowed that I couldn’t be proud in me and only cling to God’s Mercy to this His child.   Still my hearts desire is to be able to say with Paul, "14 Even so hath the Lord ordained that they which preach the gospel should live of the gospel.

15 But I have used none of these things: neither have I written these things, that it should be so done unto me: for it were better for me to die, than that any man should make my glorying void.

16 For though I preach the gospel, I have nothing to glory of: for necessity is laid upon me; yea, woe is unto me, if I preach not the gospel!

17 For if I do this thing willingly, I have a reward: but if against my will, a dispensation of the gospel is committed unto me.

18 What is my reward then? Verily that, when I preach the gospel, I may make the gospel of Christ without charge, that I abuse not my power in the gospel.

19 For though I be free from all men, yet have I made myself servant unto all, that I might gain the more"

Lord, let my life display you.  Anything that could mar your name; please rip it from my heart.  Let me seek your face always.  Here I am, Lord, Send Me.

Isaiah 6: 8 Also I heard the voice of the Lord, saying, Whom shall I send, and who will go for us? Then said I, Here am I; send me.

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=EcxOkht8w7c

When the whirlwinds of life are surrounding us, where is the hope that allows you; dear friend, to cling to joy in Christ.  Financial disasters, chronic illness, failures, death of loved ones, aging, natural disasters, and the news so filled with murders, rape, and thieves continuously attack our sensibilities.  Still, in the darkest moments of our lives as we draw near to Christ; hope arises pushing aside our despair, like a spring of living water, Joy emerges from that hope.  How can that be? In those dark moments of despair, where do you turn?  How can you break these chains of depression and hopelessness?  Some of the greatest theologians battled depression such as Charles Spurgeon, William Cowper, and at times Martin Luther.  Is it not only natural that the more we come to know of Christ, His righteousness, and His Glory the more despair we feel concerning our own failures at loving Him enough.  We weep with our inability to live out this Christian life in the manner that would bring glory to His name.  Even if we have learned to cling tight to Joy in Christ concerning our outward afflictions; how do we do so with our inward turmoil over our own failure?  Have you ever thought, "But how can God answer my petition when I know I am the one who failed Him?"  Still if God is Omnipotent, and He is; there is never been a moment where He said, "Oops, I didn’t know he/she was going to do that!!  I would never have chosen her/him, if I knew what a mess-up they were."  I am not talking to you out there who could care less about your sin and even want to blame it on God (you probably don’t even know Christ). I am talking to those of you who are broken by your failures while at the same time seeking Christ with all your hearts.  Let me share with you 5 scriptures that will help you to hold tight to hope and joy in the Future Grace promised to all who know Christ as their Savior.

Scripture #1: "Hebrews 4: 15 For we have not an high priest which cannot be touched with the feeling of our infirmities; but was in all points tempted like as we are, yet without sin.

16 Let us therefore come boldly unto the throne of grace, that we may obtain mercy, and find grace to help in time of need."  Because our High Priest (Jesus Christ) took on human flesh that He might be tempted (though without sin) and suffered hunger, poverty, pain and death for us; He is a sympathetic high priest overflowing with love for us despite our frailty.  We need never be afraid to go to Him and lay our all before His throne of grace and knowing that He will give us the grace needed for each and every next moment of our life.

Scripture #2: "Philippians 1: 6 Being confident of this very thing, that he which hath begun a good work in you will perform it until the day of Jesus Christ:"  My security is held by God’s Power and not mine.  He can take all the bumbling mistakes and turn them into something beautiful, in spite of me; though, He will not leave the chaff in my heart–He will remove it at whatever cost.  He will transform my desires until they are aligned with His.  This is does with patience and steadiness of spirit.

Scripture #3: "Romans 8: 28 And we know that all things work together for good to them that love God, to them who are the called according to his purpose.

29 For whom he did foreknow, he also did predestinate to be conformed to the image of his Son, that he might be the firstborn among many brethren.

30 Moreover whom he did predestinate, them he also called: and whom he called, them he also justified: and whom he justified, them he also glorified."  One day, I will look like Christ.  Whatever trial, pain, sorrow, or tribulation is needed to complete that task, I desire.  The hope and Joy that will lift me up in each trial is focusing on the fact that God is in control and He will transform this self-exalting, selfish heart until He has transplanted a new heart that looks like Christ, filled with His Glory and His righteousness.

Scripture #4: "2 Corinthians 3:15 But even unto this day, when Moses is read, the vail is upon their heart.

16 Nevertheless when it shall turn to the Lord, the vail shall be taken away.

17 Now the Lord is that Spirit: and where the Spirit of the Lord is, there is liberty.

18 But we all, with open face beholding as in a glass the glory of the Lord, are changed into the same image from glory to glory, even as by the Spirit of the Lord."  Step by step, glory by glory; God has taken charge of transforming of my heart.

Scripture #5: "Hebrews 13:20 Now the God of peace, that brought again from the dead our Lord Jesus, that great shepherd of the sheep, through the blood of the everlasting covenant,

21 Make you perfect in every good work to do his will, working in you that which is well pleasing in his sight, through Jesus Christ; to whom be glory for ever and ever. Amen."

So, dear friend, rise up, shake off those cloaks of despair and sing a song of praise to God for His love, His Grace and His Omnipotent Transforming Work in Your life.   Rejoice because He is in Control.

“A truly humble man is sensible of his natural distance from God; of his dependence on Him; of the insufficiency of his own power and wisdom; and that it is by God’s power that he is upheld and provided for, and that he needs God’s wisdom to lead and guide him, and His might to enable him to do what he ought to do for Him.”   Jonathan Edwards

http://www.youtube.com/watch?NR=1&feature=endscreen&v=SSDWaMK5qFg